=29th March 06=

What's the meaning of Sense of security to you? I guess woman and men have different point of view on this issue.

For men's, they must have a stable career, mentally more stable than you, financially stable. We, women will definitely have a sense of security. Right?

As for women's, I really have no idea. Stuck with it.

On the way home from Bedok, dear suddenly asked me " Have you ever wonder that did you give me any sense of security？“ Wow!!! I was dumb founded. I didnt know how to react to it. Is my first time a guy actually told me that he couldnt get a sense of security from me. No joke man.

Guess a lot of things that I do, doesnt give him any sense of security. I remembered what he said "You will get it, when a couple is together." Is the matter of time. You cant get this feeling when you are just at the friends stage. I got him wrong and I made a BIG whooha about it. Saying a lot of stupid stuff. Guess it hurt dear alot. But I really cant get it initally. At the end, everything is fine. Dear need time to get used to my way of living.

Time will prove anything. So will just let time do the miracles for us. :)

=22nd March 06=

For the past week till now, I had been so tired and tired. Guess no other words can describe how I feels. A new job, a new environment, new colleagues that I have to mingle with. Was worried that I couldnt adapt to this new environment. Coz merchandising is not my expertise. So is my very first time expose to this trade. But dear dear is there to "encourage" me. He keeps thinking that I am giving too much stress upon myself. I guess so too. At times, many info juz keep loading to my "little" brain of mine. My head juz couldnt take it. He saw it day by day how I progress. From everytime when I meet him after work, I will say "Dear, I very stress leh!!" Guess he got so sick of it. Of course, at the same time he was also worried for me. Is his first time see me so stress.... Guess my previous job let me nuah too much.

I jux want to say to my dear... THANK YOU!!!!

Dinner at Sergaroon Garden is nice. A lot of variety of foods to choose. We have hokkie mee, fried carrot cake and chicken wings. Sedap ya!!! Thumbs up. Thers is also a lot of restaurant like perikartan, russie, sushi tei, coffe bean and many more. Like a food paradise.

Dear dear always say I live in a well. As most of the time, whenever he ask me... This place you hv been to? Or wherever lar.. I don't even know where it is!!! Argh!!!!!! He always says "What have you been doing for the past twenty over years??"

After dinner went over to dear's hse. Couldn't believe dear dozed off in split seconds. I was amazed... Hmm... It seems that dear dozed off faster than me. :P

Going to sleep liao... Tata....

=3th Mar o6=

The nuah ppl went to velvet to hv some drinks. Guess what? First time saw my dear dear dancing. I thought ta bei gong dont normally dance one... Just sit down there nad doesnt move.... Hee Hee... Overall, we didnt stay till very late. Both of us dun like tt place very much.

Actually, ealier on, we went over to his friend's place to hv some drinks. I did something wrong. I didnt tell him that I went for a job interview and I got the new job. Dear dear was worried for me, as he thought what happened in the office? Why there's a sudden for me to change job?

Dear dear... I didnt it mean for not telling u de. And I did respect u alot, is just that I want things get confirm le then tell u ma. I didnt mean for not telling you de.... Forgive me ya...!

After velvet, dear dear send me home to get my stuffs over the wkends. Reach dear dear's hse at ard 3am! Settled down at abt 4am ba. Den dose off to zzzzz.... Coz tml we r heading down to the beach b4 we went for his buddy wedding at Shangri-La Hotel.

=4th Mar 06=

First time took train from Hougang with dear dear. Coz normally dear dear reached beach at abt 330 ma. So, today we head down to the beach w/o any transport. Weather is damn hot. Guess both of us will not get sun-burnt. Later still hv a weddinfg dinner to attend ma. Too tanned not good ma. To my surprise, dear dear bum ball with us leh, which on a normal basis he is damn laid bck... So nuah at the beach n hardly bum or plyed in any of the matches. But I guess is my prescence that make him to change. But I didnt expect him to change totally lar.. I just want him to be himself... I want him to be happy ya!! That's the most important de.

We left early, at ard 4pm ba. The jorney bck home is damn far n long... Get used to his car... So so long that I had took the blue line bus out of the beach and transfer the harbourfront bus out. It was so hot and the air-con of the buses is not functionally probably. Get so frustated.... Both of us dozed off on the train when we r on the way bck... Guess both of us too tired le ba...

Wedding dinner time....

Is my first time been to Shangri-La hotel. It was pretty nice. The ballroom was well-decorated. Personally, I like the decoration for the wedding. There's were 40 tables for his buddy wedding. Guess he had spend quite a bit for this wedding ba. Their photos taken was nice. Especially I like those pic taken at the train track. Was nice...