Went to work after the long weekend holidays. As I mention earlier on my previous post, I hutr my toe. So, I was telling one of my colleagues of how I got hurt. After that, all of them ask me to see doctor. Is no joke man. One of the colleague's daughter was MC for 2 weeks because of this.

Wow!!! Is that really so serious? This sentence keep ringing in my mind. While I was working, I copuldnt even concentrate. Most of the time I was thinking whether I should go and see the doctor ma??

Finally, the decision is made. I went to see during my lunch time.

Wow!! Is so damn pain.. The whole nail was being pull out w/o any anseptic jab. I was screaming lar.. Can u imagine that?? I saw alot of blood oozing out! So damn scary. Now, toe is very very pain... Given 2 days MC to rest. I hope the nail will grow back. Otherwise what am I suppose to do??

=24th Dec2005=

Is the Eve of Christmas Day, and it's fall on Saturday. Alot of my beach friends had msg me and keep asking me to go down to the beach. Like Nigel n Huilong who is not there every sat. They went down. Hmm... Although I misses them and was glad that they are at the beach, I cant go. Coz today my church have events from 3.30 till 6.30pm. Then after that the whole youth will be going down to orchard to do ushering. So I cant really go. Is a long time that I have contribute to church activities. Every Saturday, I will be at the beach. And u hardly see me at church. I was glad that I had made this choice. :)

The working youth cell was the servers for the events. So was quite busy serving foods. The buffet had our all thime favourites->ECLAIRS!! My favourite man!! Guess ate quite a few. Was so nice, just couldnt stop eating it. Soon after the celebrations, is time for us to head down to orchard to meet pastor for our duties.

My group was being called upon to do duties @ Paragroon. Wow!! Alot of people, was crowded. I hate it man. Was giving out pamplets to the crowd. But most of the people took the pamplets to fan themselves. Haiz... In the midst of giving out, we even went for our dinner @ Macondald's!! Fun rite? Hee... Cant control lar.. Was hungry need to answer my call from my stomach.. Hee.... BUT BUT!! Even Mac also was packed with people. Guess what?? This was my first time that I couldnt feel any air-con from its premises. Really!!! Guess it was too crowded. But at the end, we still managed to find a place to sit down and had our dinner.

After dinner, something "big" happen to me!! My toe was bleeding and the nail is on the edge of coming out. Oh no!! Is very painful.. Really!! But I hold back and acted like no big deal. Oh no!!!! What am I suppose to do???

Still continue to do the duties. Soon after there is no more pamplets for us to be given out. So we went to have coffee session @ starbucks. Hmm... Seems that we were relaxing ourselves ya!! :) But good times doesnt last long. Not long, Denny called Si Er and said that they need more people to be human barrier to contro the crowd as they had been spraying non-stop to the stage. So we went! I hate it man!! I kinda alot of the spary while on the way there. It was not a very nice feeling. I really hate it. Remember I had scolded a guy like nobody business. Mabel was "shocked" that I scolded that guy. Hee... :) My new bag was being "destroy" by them too. There was color stain on my bag!!!!!!!!!! Argh!!!!!!!!!!!

Finally, is time to go home. Really wish that I were at home. Reach home @ about 12.30am. Guess too tired le.. Tml still have service to attend. Nite everyone...

=25th Dec 2005=

Hey Everyone... Is Christmas Day!! Still remember that last year Christmas, I was one of the performers. Waking up early to doll up and get ourselves prepare for the performance. Guess time really flies. Now, I am one of the audience to watch the performance. The feeling was good. :) Met Ivy at the bus to go for service together. Reached German centre at about 10am ba. Just nice to find a nice seat and enjoy the service. Hee.. Both of us were sitting in front of the stage so that we could have a nice view. Is rare coz most of the time, those seats were given to the guest rather than our own people lar.

As a whole, the performance is nice. The youth have perform a dance. Was nice. Joannie you had done a good job ya! Applaud!!!!! The toddlers were cute!! Envy!! The adults performance was touching. I was touched and almost cried.

Not long, is luch time ya. Happy. Wow!! But is in a mess lar.. Coz most of the youth were running around looking for people to exchange gifts. But that is fun!!!! :) Guess I had received alot of chocolates and sweets! :) But thanks everyone!!! *Muack*

Ivy, Cindy and I went to West Mall, Coffee Bean to chill out. Was such long time that we have chill out. It was nice. Really missed those time... :)

Guess I had enjoyed myself for this year Christmas!! Hope that next year. it will be better!!!

I have been down @ the beach during the weekends. There is a beach vollyball tournament held @ ssb. It is organised by NTUC. Cool right?

The weather is pretty for the competition. Although it is quite hot in the afternoon, the heat subsided and the players won't feel so exhausted. All the players are tired, they have to reach ssb @ 9am for both days. It's hard on them and the tournament lasted almost the whole day. Lucky it had ended. :)

Bum a lot of balls.

Now slowly getting back to the nuah's group people. Bumming balls with them and have dinner with Hendry, Steven and Qi Wei. I hope this is a good start. Since the break up with Samson, I have not been chilling out with them. Feel so awkward. I still can hear news about him through the common friends that we have. I don't know is a good or a bad thing. I want to forgo everything and start anew.

God are u willing to give me this chance to start anew?
I don't want to do or whatever thingy with him anymore.
Please help!!!!!!!

Was away from home @ 9th Dec to 12th Dec 2005.

It is because..... It's our youth camp->Black or white?? Who decides??

The topic covered indeed benefit me. Still remember onr of the lesson was talking about The Parable of Sower. I really gave it a thought whether I am a seed on the thorn, rock or good soil? It's hard to always be on the good soil, but I will definitely try my best to be the seeds that was scattered on the best soil so that it will yield good crops.

Weather is not bad... But the noise that keep on beeping in our room lead us to black eyes.. So lifeless...
Last night of the cramp, I cried.. due to a stupid game lar.. I had blue blacks on my upper thighs.. How am I going to wear my shorts?? Oh no!!! Is so so painful.. All thanks to Augustine and Jethro!!!! Some more on coming friday, 16th Dec 2005, I am going to Bangkok lar.. What am I suppose to do???

Was quite disappointed about this year youth camp. A lot of people just go in and out of the camp. Is just like "part time" camp. Bonds build between us is not strong. Real pity and I feel utterly sad about it.

Once again, I had sprained my ankle. Very swollen.. Thanks God that Celine was there with me when I went for the consulation @ Eu Ren Sen. Thanks Celine... :)

I just hope that next year youth camp will be better.. But who knows?? Maybe this year is my last year joining youth camp...

Guess what happened to me on sunday, 4th December 2005

Here goes.....
After service, Cindy and I went over to Bugis for shopping. Been happily shopping, and hearing the christmas songs... really it spur us to have the shopping mood. It was all so nice till one incident happened @ Bugis village. Argh!!!!! There is a man, who is a blackfrom South America came to approach me to ask for my number. But you know what's the picking line?? "Are you a Malay-Singaporean????"

Huh??? What's that again??? Pardon you...!!! Excuess mmmeeeee... Do I look like a malay to you?? Hey, is not about racis here, but this is not the first time. Haiz... It scared us. We don't even dare to look back and the worst thing is that both of us haven finish shopping!!!!!!!!! What a day man....!!!!

Meet Ivy and told her about this incident, she is laughing all the way. Worst!!!

Cindy, Ivy and I went over to Shu Hei's 21st Birthday Party. We watched the Star Awards there. It was fun, as they were a lot of people watchig together. We bitch about which artiste not looking good, their clothings they wore on that night and blah blah... Up to your imagination what we can talk about. Hee.. Grins.....

Was a good day except the moments @ Bugis Village.. Hope I have a nice day ahead..!!!

Yup!! Everthing is over by now.

Back to God! The feeling is so so good. Although I had left the church for 3 months, the friends that I had @ the church still stand by my side. I am really glad that they have never give up on me. Thanks girls!! Really appreciated.

Oh Dear Father,
I know I had did wrong in the past.
I just wish that here I am standing right in front of you to astonish my wrongdoing.
Do you ever forgive me?
You had send ppl around me to warn me, but I chose not to listen.
Now, I just hope that it will not be too late to repent.

For the past few months of my life, all in a mess. Now, I just pray for peacefulness in my life. I really need that.

Friends who are there for me when I am down, here goes my sincere graditute to you all!!!!

Although memories cant fade away or erase of my mind, I hope that as time goes by I will be feeling better. After healing, guess will a wound there. But as I see the wound, it will definitely warn me of the things that I did. Once bitten twice shy...!! Isnt that so?

Oh Dear Heavenly Father,
As I am afraid, I know that You will always be there for me.. To protect,guide me!!! Amen....