=20th May 2006=

On this shity day, I hv to work!!!! Despite knowing ssb is going to close down in 1 month plus, my heart jux feel so pain. Mostly, I didnt have time to accompany my darling. As this wk, we didnt really hv time to meet up. So, I really cherish whatever time that I hv with my dear. Up to no choice, protest is unvalid! Still hv to work, feel like giving tons n tons of excuses for not turning up. But I cant do it, I still hv my conscience. Must be responsible towards to my job.

I hv to leave quite early for work, so cant really wait till dear's mum to buy bck the lunch. So, dear dear being so sweet n understanding. Guess wat? Dear prepare noodles for me!!! I was quite suprised! Really... Is the very first time dear cooked for me. Although it is jux instant noodles with some eggs, deep down in my heart, I feel so sweet with additional sweetner added. Hee Hee... Is the thoughts tt count, n I really appreciate tt.

Dear came over to fetch me up from work. He's always so thoughtful. He's always dere for me, n most importantly he really dotes on me very much. Hee... Suddenly feel that I'm damn so fortunate. Went over to Marina Sq to hv our dinner. G2000 have 40% sales n upon having American Express credit card, additional 15% more. Wow!!!!! Good bargain rite? Quickly grab ya!!!!! We didnt buy any coz dear need to get his AmerciaN Express card to hv the additonal 15%. So tml, we will be bck. Hee Hee....

After dinner, went to hospital to see dear's dad. Now, he is undergoing chemo-therapy. At least, saw some improvement on him n I'm glad tt he's feeling better now. Saw how his dad suffers is really a tortue for me. At certain moments I felt like crying. Is jux so sad to see him suffer, lying on the bed, n we cant do anything to help him. GOD WAT'S THIS? Pls God, with ur magnificane healing powers, heal him, give him the will to live on and the strength to carry on with his last stage of his life. Amen

I really wish tt his dad will be on the way of recovery. So that the whole family wont be so tired, especially dear. He's been running to the hospital almost everyday. Saw how tired he is n I cant do anything!!!! Argh...!!!!!